Madam Heidi
Sun 4.11.21
I watched a documentary last night of Heidi Fleiss, the Hollywood Madam who raked in millions catering, actually the term is pandering, to the big moguls in and out of the movie industry. Heidi liked moguls, old moguls. From a rich family, she went to private school and was allowed to study whatever she wanted. She quit once she got to high school and started hanging around older men. Her first marriage was to the multimillionaire Bernie Cornfeld when she was 19 and he was 60. She moved on to another gentleman by the name of Evan Nagy, a man of many talents, involved in the pimping business, in the drug business, and also an informant to the FBI
From there things start getting foggy. Another Madam enters the picture, Madam Alex. Heidi has heard of her; most people know of her. Evan also knows Madam Alex and works with her occasionally. It's never made clear by either Heidi or Evan, if he got her started with Madam Alex or if Heidi made her own decision about it. But she did work for Madam Alex, and from there she went on to start her own prostitution business. At 22, with her many connections in the upper echelons of LA, Heidi, a gorgeous girl, quickly surpassed her mentor Madam Alex, who herself was an informant to the police department. Of her mentor, Heidi said, and I'm paraphrasing, My idea of a Madam before I met her, was not a of 5' 3', balding, overweight Filipino woman in a see-through nightie.
The relationship with Nagy seemed of an obsessive nature. There are pictures of her, and of them together, throughout his apartment. He's not a nice guy, but she keeps going back for more. She's living on the edge, the edge of desire to fuck others, and to be fucked. Giving in to the brute within and without. That's what thrills her. She got her business acumen from her first husband Cornfeld, and likes her business, is good at it.
Evan testifies against her and she gets 3 years for pandering, and the government takes most of her money away. The film ends after her verdict, and a short while before the start of her sentence. She is still talking to Evan knowing he's responsible for her arrest.
I guess it's a daddy complex. She's a rebel, in your face, smirking through the whole arrest and trial process, but smart, successful, in charge. Get real, America. People like to fuck. I read somewhere she was involved with an actor recently who abused her, a sleazy character. Women in the profession speak about the many highly successful men who seek to be dominated and mistreated by them. Isn't that what Heidi seeks too? To be totally in control becomes a death sentence. One seeks relief by courting danger, the jolt to the stomach, the fear and dread, one is alive, and loved by the oppressor.
I think of Heidi as the female cowboy and doing as well if not better than last week’s post of Cowboy drug smuggler, Marty Tibbitts. She once wrote in Yale Law School’s Legal Affairs that she could makeup to $97,000 a night in commissions from her prostitutes. She was a good girl who never ratted out her clients. What’s more the courts were good to her and let her off easily.
Men were crazy for Heidi because she spoke their language, understood their needs. She had stepped over the line that keeps us all in bondage. I remember as a teenager, after having left the convent, at a juke joint waiting for the dance hall to open its door, I overheard two girls in another booth talking about fucking. They had done it and spoke brazenly about their conquests. I had never heard anything like it. The memory of those two was seared into my brain. They had reached a plateau in life that was forbidden to the rest of us. They were strong; I could see that, and repulsive.
Among Heidi’s list of clients have been Charlie Sheen, Johnny Depp, Nicholas Cage, Attorney Robert Shapiro, Billy Idol, George Lucas, Mick Jagger, Jack Nicholson. My candle burns at both ends; It will not last the night; But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends— It gives a lovely light! Heidi today is worth $5 million.
The favorite essay this past month has been Milgram Experiment
