Manifestation of the Spirit:
She was an eighteen year old married girl with a baby and very
unhappy. Her marriage was on the verge of collapse when she had a strange, incomprehensive dream. An
eagle appeared at the top of her refrigerator. It did not talk to her, but somehow transmitted the
information that she belonged to it and it was the ruler of her life. She was a headstrong girl and did
not appreciate hearing that she was ruled by another. She didn't understand the dream, but knew it was
Years later, in her thirties she came upon Carlos Castenada's The Teachings of Don Juan. The dream
seemed to be related to this brujo's teachings. Again, she went back into the fog, but not
completely. She wrote down her dreams religiously and bought all of CC's books as they came out.
Still not connecting to it. Fascinating account, is how she categorized it.
The Knock of the Spirit:
Then, again at another turning point in her life (her daughter going off to college) she had another
dream. This time a sorcerer appeared and it seemed he had been taking notes on her life. She was
flattered that he saw her inconsequential life as worthy of note. This man had tremendous power and was
very frightening. He was able to transcend time, space, even corporeality. First thing
she knew she was laying in bed naked and he was on top of her. He stroked all of her body, but not in a
sexual manner. A big black panther lay on the floor next to them and slid its tail between her legs.
The old man sat up on top of her and pointed to a piano, I have not been able to play in a long
time, he said. She reached up and stroked his steel gray hair.
This dream occurred an hour after she fell asleep and it woke her. So frightened, she was
beside herself, running through the rooms putting all the lights on, convinced he was nearby. She was
finally able to allay her fears somewhat by getting in a warm bath. It led her to ask some serious
questions about the "music" she was producing in life.
The Descent of the Spirit:
At another time on the way to a vision quest, she stopped to camp at an abandoned logging site and
had a most eerie feeling that the sorcerer was nearby. She had been thinking about the problem of
chatter in her head and how it protects her from coming face to face with the unknown. Shortly
after bedtime, she was awakened by the heavy rain collapsing the tent on her. She had had a dream in
which she was asked to produce a picture of herself for her driver's license, but she couldn't seem to
find any photo of herself without another person in the picture. In the morning, she awoke to find
her car had a flat tire and the battery was dead (a new car). She had come to the end of the road.
Since then she marshalls her small bundle of energy and tries to follow the sorcerer's path to freedom. I have also dreamt of my hands as red, ugly and mishapen (another frightening dream) and have learned of the things that block me from achieving my goals, and of the enormity of the task before me.
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